Always you

I chase the sun, it chases me

In ultima vreme, mi s-au intamplat destule lucruri in premiera. Practic se pare ca a trebuit sa traiesc 28 de ani si ceva pentru a cunoaste unele lucruri, pentru a lua unele decizii si pentru a invata cum sa tratez cu anumite sentimente. Ceea ce e grav dar nu disperat. Anul asta e ciudat in sine dar si decisiv si nu chiar in aparenta. Asa simt. E ca si cum cineva m-ar bate pe umar si mi-ar spune "baiatu', nu mai bate pasul pe loc". Sa fie din cauza motivatiei? Cam ce poate determina un om sa reia sau sa inceapa chestii de care nu s-a apucat pana acum? Hm, eu stiu raspunsul. Nevoia de schimbare care nevoie este si ea generata de ceva. Sau mai precis, in cazul meu, de cineva.
Exista fara indoiala in viata persoane care-si pun amprente asupra evolutiei noastre ca indivizi. Incepem cu parintii si rudele apropiate, cu prietenii, colegii, scoala, etc. si ajungem la acele persoane speciale pe care soarta ni le scoate pur si simplu in cale. Uneori nici macar nu trebuie sa fi prea apropiat de acea persoana pentru a primi o lectie care sa-ti modifice comportamentul sau atitudinea. Desigur, eu nu cred in schimbarea unei persoane, nu am intalnit pe nimeni schimbat radical. Pur si simplu unele lucruri exista deja dar nu se manifesta decat intr-un anumit moment si despre asta vorbesc.
Senzatia mea de acum e comparabila cu versurile astea: I chase the sun, it chases me. Dintr-un motiv anume, privesc mai des spre soare. Imi place senzatia de lumina puternica orbitoare pe pleoapele inchise, stelutele acelea incinse ce-ti joaca pe retina si caldura efectiva ce ti se revarsa pe chip. Pare o senzatie de purificare. Pare si este.
In momentele astea ascult pentru a mia oare Life of my own- Three Doors Down. Adevarul poate fi gasit mereu in versurile altora.

What if?

Pain redefined

Promises

I wanna be there when you call
I wanna catch you when you fall
I wanna be the one you need
I wanna be the one you breathe

Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown
Today’s the day we’ll fade away

I wanna be there when you cry
And when you’re down I’ll help you fly
I wanna be the one you need
I wanna be the one you breathe

Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh

But I’m coming back,
and I’m taking back everything I can
It’s breaking me up and tearing me up
It’s all I have
And I’m coming back,
and I’m taking back everything I can
It’s breaking me up and tearing me up
It’s all I have

Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh
Today’s the day we’ll fade away

Raison d'etre

I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

Reason

The reason I want to shout these crazy thoughts is because there's no proof of my existance
There's a conflict between dignity and freedom in this future I've discovered
The reason I want to erase these strange images from my mind is because I can see my limitations in them
On the window of my excessive self-consciousness lies last year's calendar with no dates written on it
So delete and rewrite it
There's a presence great enough to make me forget those ridiculous dreams
Rewrite it for a dramatic revival
Even a meaningless dream is enough to create heaven
So give me your body and soul
And together maybe we will live forever